6 Months: Mom

As you may have noticed, I published a “6 Months: Ethan” post on Tuesday.  As a brief follow-up, I wanted to mention a bit about mama.

mama

I said that it was a long and hard 6 months, and there are probably a billion little reasons why.  It isn’t something I want to dive too deeply into, but when I found similar admissions from other blogging mamas a few months ago, I knew I had to share some thoughts.

Emotionally:

I know I’m blessed times a billion to have a beautiful, healthy, sweet boy, and I know I’m lucky not to have experienced a long, drawn-out TTC period.  With that said…

There were a LOT of tears.  Daily tears.  Mama and baby.  I was upset I couldn’t make my baby happy (partly colicky, partly cranky, partly reflux, partly inexperienced mommy).  I was upset about our breastfeeding issues.  I was upset about his naps and my inability to nap too; oh, and we can throw sleep deprivation in here while we’re at it.  I’m sure this was intensified by hormones, and there may have also been a bit of PPD.  I called my doc for PPD therapist references, but I could never follow-through with making an appointment.   Even with my extremely supportive network, I’d never felt more alone and ashamed for feeling the way I did.

All of this isn’t helped by the fact that babies don’t give back.  They don’t give back the friends you miss, the hours of sleep you’ll never get back, the confidence you had before you began questioning your every decision, etc.

However, they do eventually start to smile, miss you when you’re gone, and even show their love, but it takes time.  It all just takes time.  As I said in Ethan’s 6-month post, it all “clicks” for mommies at different ages.  For some it’s a couple weeks, for others a few months, but hang in there mamas, it does eventually click.  We still have our bad days, but he’s now my shadow, my buddy.  I can’t imagine a day without him.

Physically:

  • I’m finally not so dang tired anymore, ha!
  • I’m back in all my jeans, even the skinny ones!  Don’t get me wrong; the button is still hanging on for dear life.
  • A note about getting back to pre-baby body – I’m not trying very hard, and it’s not a big stress to me.  I’m actually prepping this post while eating ice cream.  I try and run a couple days a week, and I try to do strength training as well, but I workout about a third (a half on a good week) of what I used to.
  • I’m still burning quite a few calories.  I counted calories for years, but I quit during pregnancy.  I think the extra fuel (aka: ice cream) I took in during that time helped boost my metabolism a bit.  Plus, toting around a 16-lb baby all day is tiring!

Links:

hospital

I know, I know – totally heartless, right?  Actually, don’t answer that.

Mamas, when did it click for you?

Posted in Baby | Tagged , , , , , , | 14 Comments
Wimpy WIAW

I miss my little buddy!!!  Kevin and I have both come down with the plague, perhaps some sort of food poisoning, so Ethan is with my parents.  They came over Monday night to take care of him, and my dad spent the night to help.  Last night they brought him back to their place so that Kev and I could get some rest.  Waaaahhhhhhh, I miss him!

After not keeping anything down on Monday, I wasn’t really into food yet yesterday.  Nevertheless, here’s a quick WIAW; thank Jenn for the linkup party!

wiaw

Breakfast – ginger ale and 1/3 of Ethan’s banana

Lunch – meatball Lean Pocket… definitely not the best choice

lean pocketDinner – almond butter and jelly sammich

sandwich

Wow, that was not so exciting.  ha.  In other food news, Ethan tried pear for the first time yesterday.  That was a win.  Now let’s all hope he doesn’t get what his mommy and daddy have!

  • What are your go-to sick foods?
Posted in Food | Tagged , , , | 10 Comments
6 Months: Ethan

I can’t believe it has been 6  months!  Actually, I can, but you know what I mean.  He used to be this itty-bitty preemie, but now he’s a big snuggly teddy bear.  He looks more and more like a little boy instead of a baby to me, but I guess that’s to be expected.

ethan

All of a sudden, things have started falling into place.  One friend told me that it gets better at 12 weeks.  Baby books said it gets better at 3 months, which is generally when colic subsides.  Another mom joked 21 years.  Well, for Ethan it took about half a week shy of 6.long.hard.months.  I’ll have more to say on this in another post, but it’s amazing how it just clicks all of a sudden like that.

Sleep:

  • Usually one get-up per night, almost always for a bottle
  • Sleeping all night more and more often, generally 10 hours, 8pm-6am
  • Naps all of a sudden got better.  The cat napper decided to start taking long naps in he morning, around 8:30am-10 or 10:30am, which is fantastic.
  • You’d think he’d want a long nap in the afternoon given he just had a long night sleep, but I’m not going to question it.
  • 3-4 naps per day, 1 long and 2 or 3 short

chair

Eating:

  • 4 bottles (sometimes an extra at night) and two solid meals
  • We started solids at 5.5 months though he was getting doctor-recommended rice in his bottle earlier for reflux
  • Foods so far, in order: baby oatmeal (love), carrots (love), sweet potato (love), banana (not sure), butternut squash (not sure), avocado (hate), green beans (despises with every ounce of his body)
  • I will probably move him up to three solid meals next week.

baby

Heartburn:

  • He’s still on Prevacid, and it seems to be working really well.
  • In about two weeks, I’m going to see how he does without medicine.  I really hope the sphincter muscle has developed enough to keep stomach contents in the belly where it belongs.  Cross your fingers for us!!
  • I’m taking rice out of his bottles this week.  I don’t think he needs it as much now that he’s getting food.

mirror

Favorite Things:

  • Smiling!  Babies are said to be colicky if they cry more than three hours a day.  Ummm… we used to hit the three-hour mark by noon!  All of a sudden, he’s a happier child.  Perhaps he’s less cranky now that his sleep in improved?  All I know is it makes me happy too!
  • Standing.  The kid cannot sit up unassisted yet, but it’s because he prefers standing.  He puts all his weight on his legs for extended periods of time- now if only he could balance there without my help.  The doc said not to worry about sitting and that he may end up walking sooner.
  • Chewing on things.  Allllll things.
  • Daddy.  Ethan flashes big smiles whenever Kevin gets home.

daddy

Growth:

  • He started at around 18 or 19 inches long and 5 lb 14 oz at birth.
  • He’s now 27 and 3/4 inches long and 16 lb 3.5 oz.
  • That’s a huuuuuge growth spurt!!  The nurse measured him twice because she didn’t believe he’d grown so much.
  • Best I can tell, he’s in about the 90th percentile for length and around the 50th for weight.  That’s a big and long baby!
  • I’d prefer it if strangers didn’t keep telling me how big he is for 6 months.  He’s still my little baby!!
Posted in Baby | Tagged , , , , , , | 9 Comments
I’m Baaaaack!

I’m back from vacation, and by “vacation” I simply refer to my blogging break.  I didn’t actually get to go anywhere, and I was really quite busy.  wompwomp

As I mentioned, there were contractors at my house for the past couple of weeks, but they’re finally done.  We tore out a wall, had some rooms painted, and put in new floors downstairs.

As you can imagine, that created a LOT of dust!  I’ve been cleaning like a madwoman, and we were without Internet for a while.

wall

Luckily, E has been giving me some better naps recently (please don’t let me jinx it!!!), so I was able to get a lot done.  As you can see, it still needs some sprucing, but we’re getting there.

house

Speaking of Ethan, my little angel hit his six-month mark last week.  Happy half birthday Lil’ Man!!!

wall

I’ll have more to share this week about Ethan and his growth/development, which has really been something fun to watch now that he’s out of the baby blob stage.

I also want to share about mama’s six-month update.  It’s a really personal post, so I’ve still gotta’ think how much I want to put out there, but I have a few things that definitely need saying.

But today I want to briefly recap a weekend highlight that’s helping to make this Monday Marvelous.  (Thanks Katie for the linkup!)

MiMM

Ethan and I had our second race, and I placed 3rd for my gender and age group.  Not bad for a stroller runner!  The 5k took place at a local brewery, so perhaps I run faster for beer???

race

The bads: less-than-smooth roads, good but not great beer, and wind.  I like to run races with E because I can run smack-down the middle of the road, not on bumpy sidewalks, which makes for a smooth ride.  However, this race had me dodging potholes and such – not easy to navigate!

beerAt the end, I got a complimentary beer.  Triple C is one of my fav NC breweries, but they didn’t have my top three beers available.  I settled on their flagship IPA and only drank half before heading home.

Lastly…. oh my goodness, wind!!!  Strollers aren’t exactly aerodynamic, and I don’t have a lightweight BOB.  Nevertheless, it was fun, and I’m glad we did it.  I finished with a pace of about 8:27 per mile.

  • I missed you all!!!!  How was your week/weekend?
Posted in Brews, Fitness | Tagged , , , , , | 14 Comments
Recipes Recipes Recipes

Happy Friday!  I was going to share my back/biceps workout today, but I think a Foodie Friday is in order. Plus, my brain isn’t working today since E had me up about 5-6 times last night. Yawwwwn!

gym

at least I made it to the gym yesterday

Here are some of my favorite recipes from across the web.  Some have pretty pics; some don’t.  Some are blogger originals; some aren’t.  I have linked to some before, but not all of them.  Enjoy, and leave a couple links to your fav web recipes in the comments!

e

Ethan in tiger shirt, 0-3 month size

Breakfast Yummies

E

Ethan in tiger shirt, 6-9 month size

And now for the desserts!

These aren’t all my favorites, but they are the first to come to mind.  Have a great weekend!

In the comments, please link one or more of your fav online recipes!

Posted in Food | 10 Comments